I'm slowly picking up the pieces and putting it back together, and I see that things are slowly falling into place. Life has not been this peaceful for very long thus I am truly enjoying the serenity. I have not been having this much fun for years! Late night rides, our trips to scary places, the frightening experiences, the people we've met up, old and new, our ladies' nights, our bowling and pool nights, our beach outings and times when we just sit and talk the days away. Friends, family, extended family, old acquaintainces.. memories to be cherished.

Spending time with family, and alot of talks wth my dear mother really helps. She has such a beautiful way of putting things and making things clearer for me. Mothers always have the healing touch. :) I've never been close to her in my life, and this is the first time I'm really getting to know the true meaning of a mother. I'm really happy about it. I hope this lasts :)

They say that you are your own worst critic, and I think my own thoughts are killing me slowly. I try to keep myself occupied but sometimes I tend to just daze off into space. It makes me wonder, at times, whether I did the right thing. But I try not to second-doubt what I do, because I believe that at one point it meant alot to me :)

Would you admit the truth? If you know that dear friendships were on the line? When you know you could lose some people forever? When you know you could get away with it if you don't utter a word and have the life you wanted? Not many would, but I did. And I wasn't asked to do it, I did it on my own accord. Food for thought.

There are still many things yet to be fixed. One example of that would be that obnoxious, pompous ass that I wish I could murder. The same one that I have cursed too many times. Things are not going to get better till the day comes when we can be rid of that person. It's going to be years till we get to do that, so for now I can only vent my feelings as I watch all the misdeeds take place before my eyes. It is truly hurting, to see my loved ones get hurt. And it is even more hurting to think that at one point of my life, this person was there for me. Only to realize now that this person was too busy talking behind our backs all this while. And all the things that was done to me.. unforgiveable. I've ranted too many times about this person, and that is the only thing that keeps me sane. I'm surprised that all of us are still sane. But we all have scars that can't be healed. But we're not going to give up the fight, cause we'll always be united :)


Moving on to other things.

I'm very confused on many things. I know what I want, I'm just having trouble on what I should do first and when to start on it. Singapore has very limited resources; I wish I could leave the country. To Australia <3 The place I've been dreaming of moving to since I was 16.

Before the big dreams come on, I do have some things on my to-do list. :P
1) Master bowling & playing pool
2) Learn how to cook indian food
3) Eat healthier and exercise - to lose 4kg (Vainpot much?!)
4) Take my driver's license
5) Learn french
6) Get over my fear of balls (most retarded fear on earth)
7) Study hard when school starts
8) Be closer to my family

I'm already on my way on most of it! Let's see how it goes!
Many events coming up soon, can't wait!
Life is short, might as well enjoy it while it lasts ;)

Till then.

♥